Graduation is only One month and 18 days away...
Hold the phone! I am officially an adult in one month and 18 days.
(well.. hopefully) ;)
Many times when I tell people that I am called to vocational ministry, people ask where I will be residing? I proceed to tell them that I do not yet know where I will be living. It could be here, there, or wherever. Then I am asked if I am okay with that? Not living where my beautiful family is, etc...?
My reply is usually this: I'll be just fine, God has blessed me with a gypsy heart. I really believe that. I can live wherever. Yes, I'll miss my family and friends but the Lord has prepared me to be away from them if that is what He calls me to.
I am so ready for adventure. Something new.
As I have been processing graduation and oh.. just life in general, God has showed me something else. Yes, my gypsy heart is for real, but not just with location but with temporary loves.
Jesus calls us to live solely for Him. My constant prayer is that He will consume my heart and mind. But, I so easily give my heart and mind away. I allow my mind and heart to be consumed by things of this world, good things, even Jesus things. But Jesus himself? Am I letting my heart be steadfast in my love for Jesus, or am I letting my heart be gypsy-like and seek love from things that are temporary?
Ohh this gypsy heart of mine.
Exodus 33:15 has been my prayer as of late.
And he said to him, "If your presence will not go with me, do not bring us up from here.
I have been praying this verse over my life in the context of jobs, graduation and the future. Today I had a new thought, what if this verse is my prayer when it comes to my heart and mind.
Lord, if your presence is not where my daydreams, business, thoughts are going. DO NOT allow me to go there. Lord, keep my thought life grounded in your presence. Let me have the Kingdom bound mindset. Lord, if my heart is seeking things of this world, then let them not be satisfied even for a second by the temporary. Lord, let me love you with my whole heart, entire mind, all of my strength, and every part of my soul. Lord, let it be You, that I adore.
Our constant goal should be, becoming one with Jesus. Not being perfect or obeying. But being one with Him. Being exactly where His presence is.
I am done with allowing my heart to be gypsy-like in anyway other than location. I desire for my heart to find it's ONLY home in Jesus Christ. He is jealous for me. Praise Him, He is jealous for me.
Constantly pursued.
Matt 6 and Psalm 34.
Love y'all.
